random rant

my mind is a lil' hazy right now, hasn't been functioning properly for quite some time now. i wonder how i manage to function as usual - and therefore i've come to the conclusion that i don't use it very much afterall. yes, i do wonder. i'm seeing tangerine trees and marmalade skies, i wonder if i'm high? i'm propping my eyelids open with toothpicks, is that blood on my face?